une catastrophe comme moi

夜行动物

2009-01-19T13:29:00.000-08:00

Der schnelle Tag ist hin. Die Nacht schwingt ihre Fahn
Und führt die Sternen auf. Der Menschen müde Scharen
Verlassen Feld und Werck. Wo Tier und Vögel waren
Traurt itzt die Einsamkeit. Wie ist die zeit vertan!

Der Port naht mehr und mehr sich zu der Glieder Kahn.
Gleich wie dies Licht verfiel, so wird in wenig Jahren
Ich, du, und was man hat , und was man sinnt, hinfahren.
Dies Leben kömmt mir vor als eine Renne-Bahn.

Laß, höchster Gott! mich doch nicht auf dem Lauf-platz gleiten!
Laß mich nicht Ach, nicht Pracht, nicht Luft, nicht Angst verleiten!
Dein ewig-heller Glanz sei vor und neben mir!

Laß, wenn der müde Leib entschläft, die Seele wachen,

Und wenn der letzte Tag wird mit mir Abend machen,
So reiß mich aus dem Tal der Finsternis zu dir.

evolutionary pain

2009-01-19T12:59:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time Louise was told by someone,

you will never find someone who loves you as much as I do ,

she gave him a smile and a walkaway as response, believing life could certainly bring more love stories and believing nobody could be lucky enough to find the one as a beginner giving the first try.

Fxxk. The fxxking Trentemoller.

The fxxking piece is called miss you.

Also I found wine is the best tool to transfer sadness into positive outcome. Not beer. Not at all.

Kirin brings joy. Nobody doubt that, neither do I. People forget lots of inconveniences when in true Kirin, even if there is any, it will not be a problem in Kiriners’ eyes. When in Kirin, not true Kirin, maybe ordinary Kirin, some spoiled kids like me will be crying for this unfair treat arranged by god.

Bump…as you can predict, you met another one, and fortunately enough, you fell again.The same day you felt lucky enough to find somebody to accept the whole of you including both the past and the future possible changes about you, then another BUMP… He is not that into you. One hash truth, I know, but that is it, lying there, with no regards to your preference.

When you decide to be with somebody judged as underqualified, you cannot complain about problems like he cannot get into your heart, because he has never been there, and even if he finds any path, the door will be closed anyway. After that phase, you have reached another millstone to reflect the new ugly you, just as ugly as someone you have newly found. You are ugly because you decided to be with someone not for Kirin, even though you are not quite sure about the other reasons that you decided to be with him. To guess is to insult Kirin. However one reason will be the current boredom in life. This thought came as one familiar female voice repeating in my head this morning. Pyramid… Saint Lazare …chatelet…Madeleine... No need to mention some further memory about Aachen Brussel Koln Dortmund Berlin… Just when I named those cute cities, I have to confess that I do have some north issues, issues about slim Scandinavian blond, with Germans acceptable.

The smaller reason you began an affair, the less you will be in it later with your heart and soul. Maybe you would like to define it this time as an early relationship. Sorry to inform you that this one does not exist, if you prefer to call it marriage, nobody will rejects you, but Kirin, no. noooooo.

Screw you with tongue in my eyes, with arms around me.

Shortly in general, I do not believe in Kirin any more. Maybe sex, maybe money would be my new pursuit, not Kirin, not any more. From when on, everybody will be allowed to call me Bitch, literately.

Did I mention that I hate the L word ?

so I wanted to name it with my most dislike beer Kirin, or maybe later I can find a four-letter word.

hello young lady ^^

2008-12-04T05:50:00.001-08:00

记得当时年纪小

爱吃肉来也吃草

囧囧囧

写诗写诗

2008-12-01T11:44:00.001-08:00

理论上来讲

我们都在

欧亚大陆上

也就是说

如果我贴着地面告诉你一些我的不快乐

你应该能听到

sauf que

tu t'en fous

I <3 CITY PICTORIAL

2008-11-25T06:57:00.000-08:00

回来一直没有状态, 麻木,

一切都没有准备好,

无聊到无聊也不愿走出去,

呆在两路鸟语花香, 高山流水,

中间出去了一趟, 最远去了朝天门, 为了买一系列画框,

感觉是一下回到解放前,

巴黎的左岸右岸远得如共产主义中级阶段,

下午又绕到精典去买书,

解放碑依然让人觉得,

一下回到西元史前,

Saint-Germain-des-Prés远得如共产主义高级阶段,

恨不得闭眼漫步, 仿佛一切还停留在和风细雨的巴黎, 后面两个女人扯起喉咙的重庆言子让我积蓄已久的,不知道该埋怨谁,是否该恨自己的冲动和无能为力的尘埃落定所引起的内火直冲脑门, 转过头狠狠的把两个无辜女人从头恨到脚板儿心心. 在他们即将要决我的时候, 飞进海逸买了一块拿破仑蛋糕, 黄油一沉到胃,整个世界都安静了. 然后自己摸了哈自己灰仆仆的脸, 开心的把价钱换算成欧元.好划得来哦, 在巴黎只能买个croissant.

唉....懂事, 日子好过.

这一切的一切终于挨到今天下午,

终于买到城市画报,

俺的老相好,

百年不变的纸张,

华丽的内容,

朴实的价格,

人生终于充实了.

Home

Is where heart is…

关于我对杂志的热爱,但凡与我走过一段的男人女人还有我妈,都晓得,是非常恐怖的.大学的寝室,专业书被杂志挤到床脚,回国的时候首先寄的那个40kg的箱子里也塞满了purple.vice.vogue.match...

家里的书架,最好的位置总是留给taschen那一系列类杂志的art now,fashion now,XXX now...etc. 这一切都是一个普通的装b大龄儿童的理性行为,看到那一堆花花绿绿的封面,心里就跟吃了瑞士糖般,甜而不腻.

家里的厕所,爸爸那个堆满了晨报晚报大报小报除了蓝色小报.俺的御用卫生间堆满了三联...每天酒足饭饱一关厕所门就有点不离马桶而知天下事的皇家风范,还一边撕手纸一边盘算要不要搞个防水电脑在厕所一遍灵感来了的时候创作个啥子中长篇小说.

腹中异动,不是有娃娃了应该就是该看哈杂志了.嗯.

798

2008-11-21T00:09:00.001-08:00

I know

Beijing is the Capital

somehow I am strange here...

It feels like I have never been here before...

new life drags old me

2008-11-20T23:08:00.001-08:00

voilà...

la Chine

le Pekin

I am back.

After a simple flight with 5 huge bags I stepped into this wonderland for stomach. In case that my mother dessert eats my imagination,

I start this blog to keep recording myself as one catastrophe born in 1984.